My Sanity

There have been times in the last year when I thought I had lost this. It is easy and natural to put your whole self into your family, but the more I did this the more I felt I was loosing me. I needed a hobby, something I could do and still be a full time mom. I needed something that was for me, as selfish as it sounds. I tried out many different hobbies, none of them sticking and none of them fulfilling the void. I would go weeks at a time being busy busy and feeling just great about everything, then all of a sudden I would feel it again, that need to have something else. Something to think about besides dishes, dinner, diapers. Ultimately I knew what I wanted to do, but was just waiting for the right opportunity. In April that opportunity presented itself and with slight hesitation, I took it. Herriman Arts council was putting together it's production team for their summer musical and I got a call to be apart of it. I made it clear from the start what nights I would be available and that I couldn't commit to being there all the time. I was asked to be the assistant director, so perfect. Immediately I was excited to think about auditions, blocking, acting, props! This is my hobby, this is what I love, this is what I was craving.

So from that time forward Dave has graciously taken over the role of feeding Grace dinner and putting her to bed on Tuesday and Wednesday nights and looking after her Saturday mornings. He had to sacrifice a few of his own hobbies to do so, but was more than willing to let it be my turn for a little while.

I have loved being apart of this. Though at times I wished I could just stay home and hang out with Grace and Dave, I was happy to have this responsibility. The stress of tech week was exciting, getting to know new people was exciting and being creative was exciting. This weekend it comes to an end and I am ok with that because I know there will be more opporutnities in the future. I guess my tank has been filled for awhile. So come and support me and my sanity this weekend at Herriman's Butterfield outdoor Ampitheater to watch "The Music Man." We are not Broadway, we are not even Hale Center Theater, but we are a bunch of people who love theater, especially musicals. Shows are Friday, Saturday and Monday and tickets are available at herrimanarts.org. I hope to see you there and if not you can see me another time as I happily reprise my role as devoted mother and wife here at home.